I'm so sorry I haven't posted in such a long time. Timing is everything and it's something we all understand.
Lately it's been a cross between bad news, more surgery on my throat, more doctors appointments, scheduled hip operations, cancelled operations, new surgeons, new surgery dates for my hip, delays in surgery dates become my throat is too damn messy and too damn complicated and a whoooollle lot of pain. AND I mean a whole lot of pain.
These last 4-5 months physically and mentally have been the hardest. I've battled through some of the worst pain I've experienced in quite some time, and I hit that emotional wall where everything just became too much. I'm not going to go too much into it at the moment but this is where I'm at.
Looking ahead: Surgery on my hip on the 12th of December and personally, I hope its really bad when they get inside. Truth. Although they know I'm in pain and have every right to be having a good whinge.... I want them to go and question...why wasn't something done sooner. I'm sick of all the BS and I want my life back. Even if its just apart of it, a grasp of Independence is a world away from where I am right now.
Ill hopefully post properly when the time is right.
- jen xo
I am sorry that things have been so SO crappy :( Here's hoping that the surgery is the first step towards getting you better! xoxo
ReplyDeleteThanks hayleybob. You do make the days easier for me though. Aways a thoughtful kind soul on the other end of my angry, ranty texts. :-)
ReplyDeleteFingers crossed for surgery too xx
I know I am just a random text, wall post or blog comment that pops up every now and again (and not at all as often as I should) but I want you to know that I think about you lots! If one day we can once again hang out regularly and get to know each other without the stupid stuff life throws to get in the way - I will be very happy!!!!!!
ReplyDeleteGood luck Jen and know that if you ever do need me I'm always at the other end of the phone.
xx