NOTE: this blog has one MA15+ word in it. If you are my neighbor or someone I know well, I apologize in advance. I also apologize this particular blog doesn't contain much wit. Sorry
Hi all,
I've been meaning to blog again this week, but need to get into the habit I think of updating this just as I do twitter or facebook (well not AS regularly but I assume you get my drift).
So this week in my life, my pain has worsened. As well as pain in my leg, the pain has moved into my groin [which is like a neon sign saying something is wrong], it is around where the femoral artery sits along the hip line (you know the line in between your hips and your legs) and unfortunately and MA15+ rated along the soft tissue on the left side of the vagina.
I apologize for being a bit graphic but that's just how awkward this pain is. I feel like the last two weeks have blended together due to pain medication and constant changing of ice packs and of course sleep. Welcome to the life of a pain patient.
Highlight of last week however was a day trip to uni in Bendigo to hand in an assignment and do an oral presentation. I won’t go into much details except I was heavily medicated for my part of the group presentation and I slurred my way through. FML. The real highlight was that I got to see my friends, and they made me laugh.
On the weekend I had my MRI scan. I was in the machine for over an hour, which is extremely pain full particularly as you can’t move and you are having constant leg spasms. I also found out later I was supposed to have an injection of some sort of dye, which I didn’t get. Anyway I ended up having to contact my surgeon on the weekend saying I needed hospital help. 'I'm at the end of my tether with this current pain'. [NOTE to Surgeons: never ring patients from your mobile without blocking your number. otherwise they can contact you whenever they need (luckily for me he didn't block his number)] He organized for me to be admitted into the hospital, and very quickly I received a call from admissions confirming info etc, then the nurse manager called, and we all decided that it would be best for me to come in on Monday morning [today] as then I could confirm with my health insurance that I am covered. --> Mum got a phone call this morning saying the doctor hadn’t signed ANY paperwork, had provided no information about my medications etc, and was unable to be contacted today. The nurse recommended I stay at home where I have control of my medication and that if I had come in they would not be able to give me a pain relief as the doc hadn’t signed of given any info. Fantastic. That pretty much why I was going in there in the first place. Pain control and to find out why im in so much pain!
Now i'm stuck in a confusing mindset of if I go? - I will lose control of when and what I self medicate with. If I don’t go, will I be in the same place I am in now. I find i'm always stuck with the same thought when I need to go to hospital. Whats the point of it all? Can they help?
Signing out,
Jen xo
