I'm so sorry I haven't posted in such a long time. Timing is everything and it's something we all understand.
Lately it's been a cross between bad news, more surgery on my throat, more doctors appointments, scheduled hip operations, cancelled operations, new surgeons, new surgery dates for my hip, delays in surgery dates become my throat is too damn messy and too damn complicated and a whoooollle lot of pain. AND I mean a whole lot of pain.
These last 4-5 months physically and mentally have been the hardest. I've battled through some of the worst pain I've experienced in quite some time, and I hit that emotional wall where everything just became too much. I'm not going to go too much into it at the moment but this is where I'm at.
Looking ahead: Surgery on my hip on the 12th of December and personally, I hope its really bad when they get inside. Truth. Although they know I'm in pain and have every right to be having a good whinge.... I want them to go and question...why wasn't something done sooner. I'm sick of all the BS and I want my life back. Even if its just apart of it, a grasp of Independence is a world away from where I am right now.
Ill hopefully post properly when the time is right.
- jen xo
