pain free?

Hello readers once again,
I have been absent from this blog for a small amount of time yet so much has gone on.
In my last post i mentioned my pain had worsened. Well you see it worsened to the point where my mother rang my surgeon (who by the way is my only doctor in Melbourne at the moment) and in distress told him that something needed to be done. He agreed and arranged for me to have a cortisone injection with some long acting aesthetic under some local aesthetic. Anyway he tried to get me in that day, but with no long i had to last out the weekend till Monday where i was fortunate for doctors at another private hospital were able to fit me in.
After looking at the joint and comparing it to my good hip under ultrasound, they moved me under x-ray to perform a small procedure (Over heard doctors discussing i might have also ripped the gluteus maximus from the attachmant site on the tracanter as this is a site of pain increase in the last week). This procedure is almost identical to one Ive had several times before (fluoroscope MRI - without the MRI part) and each time, it becomes more painful.

It started off painful and got worse and worse. i was crying, then screaming with the pain. After 20 minutes of the doctor moving the needle filled with long acting aesthestic, cortisone and contrast inside my hip joint, i threw up from the hysteria and pain. The doctor was so upset with how I'd come through this procedure, knowing he was doing the best he could. They decided the best was to proceed with this procedure properly would be by using pethodox. They don't use this in the hospital and had to get the drug company out to show them how to use this medication. The booked me for 12.30 the following day.

I arrived at the hospital on time, and while the drug rep was late, the doctor's and nurse's were wonderful. I even had one of them say to me, "i couldn't stop thinking about you all night".
Once the drug rep turned up and showed the doctors and nurses in the room how to use the pethodox.. (the wonderful green stick ambo's give for pain if you haven't caught on...), I even helped answer some of their questions like how long does it last for and what happens when the patient covers the oxygen hole at the top (20 mins, more pethidine, less oxygen = less pain). Clearly I've been in the hospital system way too long, even yet been ambo'ed off to hospital way too much. Anyway the decision was to do this under the influence on my own medication taken an hour before hand (valium, endone), and use the pethodox as well. Also instead of doing it under x-ray, to perform the procedure under ultrasound as there was so much scar tissue within the joint space.
I came through the second procedure not feeling a thing. I am so greatful for that little green stick and now its just a waiting game. Does the cortisone make it better? does it help with the pain? has it reduced my pain levels?
unknown as yet.
As with the first appointment and with the second the local aesthetic has its effects. first you cant raise your leg... makes it very difficult to get dressed even to raise your knee to put an uggboot on or to lift you legs up on the couch. Dead leg. Luckily its gone by the morning. All to have it repeated the next day. Last night i was so over being like this. Will i ever reach a level where I'm pain free? I ended up taking my frustration on my poor dog, when taking him out to the toilet at night. He'd had gone out roughly about 5 mins before me so in all fairness he had probably already gone "wee wee's" (he generally wees on command) but i couldn't deal with his barking at the possums and disobeying me, so i ended up yelling at him and storming off on my crutches in pain back in side.

Its now roughly 36 hours since the procedure was done, I've mostly slept during this time, however I think i am feeling slightly better. not emotionally or mentally, but physically i may be feeling less pain, however I'm not sure just yet.

Its now been 3 months since the onset of pain this year and when it came back, i knew something was wrong, and often was told and scans said otherwise. However I think yesterdays procedure notes might be a little bit on my side for a change. Through all of this i feel like i know my body better than anything or anyone, and each time I've been right. Sure I've coped the label of chronic pain which I'm OK with, however each time I've been in a state of pain there has been something physically wrong with my body. Why would now be any different?

Anyway there is a few questions posed here and one again any feedback is wonderful.
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signing out with love,
jen xo